I’ve noticed lately how my mindset in life has been so wrong. I know why I live the way I live, “and whatsoever ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus” (Col 3:17) but, I never noticed how little I actually apply that practically in my choices and specifically, my thinking. When times get tough and hope is hard to grasp, I automatically act in a way that says “life’s to hard so why even try”. I resort to every night finding that new movie to take my mind off of things or comfort foods to make me feel better, shopping because maybe that perfect outfit will give me a days worth of feeling some kind of satisfaction. Of course at the time I never see the way I react to problems is not the right way to handle things, but now I can see it more clearly.
Somewhere along the way, I forgot my purpose. The most gracious loving God did not decide to give me life because he wanted me to find fulfillment and happiness in materialistic things. He didn’t create me to thrive when times are great and hide away in despair when times are hard. He tells me He made me in His image. He made me to “mount up with wings as eagles”. To love fully, for I am loved. As someone so blessed to know Him personally and in such a real way, my attitude and life should radiate strength and hope to everyone that sees me.
So, I guess the thought behind all these jumbled words is…when you get lost and confused in what you are even doing anymore. When you don’t even understand why you are even here when everything you say or do seems so inconsequential. When it seems their are so many people around you that you just cant even come close to amounting to. And you’re missing out on so many happy opportunities with other beautiful souls because Netflix and chill is all you want these days. YOU were chosen to be made into a person with feelings to have, people to love, and changes to make. God personally decided YOU needed to be a part of this thing called life. He tells us that “my grace is sufficient for YOU”. And I think, He wants us to live like we’re alive. To spend every minute of everyday like its the best one yet. To love Him, by loving what He decides to give us in that moment. Because it’s enough. He is more than enough. And living a life that testifies to that, is my purpose.